Are you sure that scale is right?

Wednesday 2/1/17

I’ve been having a lot of reflux and digestive issues, so today I was at the doctor’s.

You know when you know something is true, but you’ve some how managed to make it be different in your head. And then  something happens where you have to face it..Example… I know I’ve gained wt. but when I got weighed today, I was 7 pounds heavier than when I was pregnant! wtf???? (I can’t believe I just wrote that for anyone to see). I just stood there staring at it. It was actually hard to process.

I’m very envious of people who are truly at peace with their bodies, big, small, thick, thin, boobs, no boobs. If you are comfortable in your skin that is a huge accomplishment.I try, I said try, to talk nicely to myself. I try to appreciate that my body is healthy and strong and enables me to do anything I want to do. I try to tell myself that if I feel my body is too big right now then I have the power to do something about it. I try to focus on what I think are my positives. I like my hair. I like my eyes. I like my boobs. I actually have a pretty high confidence level. I’m just tired of thinking about wt all the time.

Today was my wake up call. I know, for me, I feel better when I put more effort into doing what I know is good for my body. I dug out all my old notes and set some measurable goals. (I already broke a lot of these bad behaviors back in June) It’s amazing what you can fuck up in 7 months! I have 17 weeks till Memorial Day. That’s my first goal date.

Believe it or not….there was a time when my family was worried about me because I was way too thin. No one’s been worrying about that lately.

#weightloss #fitness #diet #selfimage #loveyourself #itsajourney #crossfit